I'm so sad right now. It's almost 2am in NJ. I got here about 2 hours ago and I already miss my kids terribly. Also, my dear friend's daughter is sick which I feel very deeply and am helpless to do anything about it. And another thing that I can't share yet weighs on me, too. I'm hoping a good night's sleep makes me feel a tiny bit better. :-(
Realtor called to tell me the property has a buyer, who plans to stucco the house and wants me to stay. More than two weeks after the deadline. Maria said she'd tried to contact the housing authority but they're notorious for not returning calls or emails, so I'm going to their office this morning see if this is doable.
Spent a few days last week in Carmel with my family. My youngest brother Harry flew back with his wife and stepson Saturday. Wish I were able to spend time with them more often. (Pictures by my sister-in-law Mary.)
My birthday is this month and I admit it, I kinda love my birthday...always have. Unfortunately I am not surrounded by like minded people. MAN isn't into such things and to top it off since I met him 14 years ago the week around my birthday has always been his (he attends an annual LARP and has since long before he met me). My mom is pressing me
I am so goddamned angry and sad today. It's been a year and 8 months since I had a steady job. Everything feels broken. I feel isolated and tired all the time. I honestly just want to give up today. I won't, but fuck, I feel like it.