Dannie Jost

I would do now anything to not do this. I would do anything. I claim that I would do anything not to. But what does that mean, to do anything not to do this? Is doing anything any where in the vicinity of actually doing it. What if I did it? What if I wrote the essay? What if I wrote the novel? What if I actually poured out my soul on to the pages instead of hiding behind the semiotics of this whole charade? What if?  What if it is a charade? - Dannie Jost