A couple mornings a week I let Jayden skip his shower & wake him up at 6:30 instead of 6. I really enjoy that extra half hour. Ten minutes left & I'm not ready to get him up yet...because aaahh, peace.
My friend who took Daisy has an upstairs neighbor who's living there on false pretenses under her mother's section 8. The owner has conflict with her, the other tenants don't like her. Andrea thinks she will be put out soon and is telling the owner wonderful things about me :-)
I think I packed the paperwork for the laptop. So I don't know what to do. When I shut it off I noticed later the power light was still on but the screen was dark. Pushed the power button and it started to come on but only as far as a dark screen with the cursor. I can move the cursor but keyboard doesn't work. What can I do?
Packed up the bookshelves, and the towering pile of books in my room. Took them & some other stuff to the storage space; my neighbor's boyfriend helped. He asked me "who packed this up? You?" which I thought was kinda odd.
That awful skin tag on my neck. It either fell off or shrunk down without me doing anything at all to it. Woke up this morning & it was gone. Just a barely noticeable pink dot where it used to be. Weird!
Rented a storage space today. I'll have Jayden help me fill up the van & move stuff into it maybe starting today after school. It'll help to get the stuff that's already packed out of our way. Hopefully we won't need it for long.
Owner keeps reminding me how much time until February. Said he doesn't care if I don't find a place, he has to move in on February 1 or he's taking me to court. I can't even get packed. I don't have anywhere to go remember how i busted my ass to move my mom in 2012 there is no one to do that for me I don't know know what the fuck to do
There are people who are not fucking with me right now because they say I'm crazy for putting my family out behind some dogs. They say I need to take them to the shelter and just deal with it. I don't know how to do that.
Called about a second house I saw listed. Got a text back saying they'll email me the application & let me know date of open house. Texted them my email. So when he sends me the app, it's in an email with six other interested parties! Their email addresses visible to me, mine to them!
A skin tag on my neck is particularly irritating. Keeps catching my hair which pulls it & hurts a lil bit. Miss the days of private insurance when my doc would just burn them off with a cauterizer thingy. They don't do that at MediCal accepting clinics. They tell me to cut it off with sterile scissors :-|
When was my last haircut? Don't remember if it was 2014 or 2013. Today I went to Goodwill to get Jayden some jeans. Learned that all apparel will be 50% on the 17th, so I made a note in my calendar & left. Passing Great Clips, I thought, my ends are hella raggedy, and I've got $20 in my pocket, might as well.
I cried most of the day. Didn't get out of bed much. Only ate once. Did no packing. Ignored the poor dogs outside my bedroom door. Would have ignored Jayden if he'd let me. I hate my life. It's too difficult. Painful. Sad. There's too much struggle and I can't see me ever having comfort or real happiness. I want to give up.